A rant and a toast...
Posted: Sat Jan 15, 2011 3:06 am
Dear Friends (or acquiantances if you prefer),
What a week it has been. In one of my last posts I promised that the next time I had a beer I would drink to your health. Well here I am, Friday night, on the couch, with a nice cold one goin' down so I intend to make good on that promise. I would also like to share a bit of what was on my mind today about who I am.
Who am I anyway? Is it my identity? I am a husband, son, brother, friend, musician, goof ball, video game addict, insurance underwriter, owned by a cat, and many other things that people tend to be. I have become a PN sufferer but that does not change the other things, PN can't have them! But these are only part of me.
Is it how I feel? I'm only 31 but I've had a chance to feel plenty of the things that come with being human. Happiness, joy, sadness, fear, depression, desire, anger, pleasure, downright weirdness, etc., etc., etc. I've been introduced to pain that I didn't think could exist outside of the pits of hell, and have come to find out it could be worse!!! I believe it is always okay to feel the way you do, you don't need to justify it to anyone. It could be argued that these sensations and emotions make up the whole of our existence. But that's not all either.
My brain was grinding on this for quite a while and I finally came to the conclusion that I am just me. Wherever I go, whatever I'm doing, however I feel, I am still me and no amount of pain or any diagnosis will ever take that away. God has given me this life; past, present, and future and nothing will ever change that. Now that that's out of my system on to the toast:
Here's to all who are struggling with pain right now
may you find relief quickly
may loved ones surround and support you
may the road ahead bring you kindness and compassion
may God lead you to healing and peace
when you are down may hands reach out to lift you up
when you are strong may you reach out to help others who are in need
and may you always remember who you are
Cheers! *clink*
Nick
What a week it has been. In one of my last posts I promised that the next time I had a beer I would drink to your health. Well here I am, Friday night, on the couch, with a nice cold one goin' down so I intend to make good on that promise. I would also like to share a bit of what was on my mind today about who I am.
Who am I anyway? Is it my identity? I am a husband, son, brother, friend, musician, goof ball, video game addict, insurance underwriter, owned by a cat, and many other things that people tend to be. I have become a PN sufferer but that does not change the other things, PN can't have them! But these are only part of me.
Is it how I feel? I'm only 31 but I've had a chance to feel plenty of the things that come with being human. Happiness, joy, sadness, fear, depression, desire, anger, pleasure, downright weirdness, etc., etc., etc. I've been introduced to pain that I didn't think could exist outside of the pits of hell, and have come to find out it could be worse!!! I believe it is always okay to feel the way you do, you don't need to justify it to anyone. It could be argued that these sensations and emotions make up the whole of our existence. But that's not all either.
My brain was grinding on this for quite a while and I finally came to the conclusion that I am just me. Wherever I go, whatever I'm doing, however I feel, I am still me and no amount of pain or any diagnosis will ever take that away. God has given me this life; past, present, and future and nothing will ever change that. Now that that's out of my system on to the toast:
Here's to all who are struggling with pain right now
may you find relief quickly
may loved ones surround and support you
may the road ahead bring you kindness and compassion
may God lead you to healing and peace
when you are down may hands reach out to lift you up
when you are strong may you reach out to help others who are in need
and may you always remember who you are
Cheers! *clink*
Nick
