probably got nerve damage from internal self massage :(
Posted: Mon Jan 05, 2015 5:33 pm
Hello to everyone,
(it's going to be long, sorry - but you can jump to my question below)
I'll start from the begining in 2010, i'm 5 years sufferrer, male, 38 years old, same story like the most of you - and it just got worse and worse that gradually ruined my personal life, sex, even friends and girl friends ect...
my "prostatits" / pudendal neuralgia started as annoying weird in the left side of the penis shaft when rubbed with the underwear, (i didnt notice at first) and in time developed to constant burning or stabbing pain in the buttocks, testicals, prostate, perineum,penis, genitals, peeing pain, pelvis pain even through the knees, ect. most in the LEFT side, some in the right. the pain was "jumping" from one "place" to another all the day - it was "choosing" where to attack my body, it changed sometimes whan i changed positions. worsend by sitting, lieing down didnt help, some of it dull by walking or sport, and way way worse after sex - hours of extra pain.
in the first 2 years I did'nt KNOW what is pain or nerve meds are - only some antibiotics and tylnol - that's it.
some of the nice orologists that treated me then, told me to take antibiotics to long term - that didn't help, like the 2 prostsate heat therapy (painful like hell) that did'nt help to the pain but helped some in the urine stream... said to me that i will have to live with the horrible pain - just as is. i'v dealt with the "prostatis" pain by mostly myself as i told - healthy "prostatis diet" sport and yoga streaches all the day long - becusae i couldnt stay sit from the pain and without my microwave heating pad, cooldn't lie down or just sleep in the day because of the annoying pelvis pain, i was totaly ALONE in this sh#t, the doctors didn't know what to do with me, some of them just didnt care - so i was finding myself "working out" in long walks, sport, work, even books in the late night, in the morning when the pain stared and worsend - until the late night - when my boddy was so tired and the muscles too, just then - the pain subside, and then i went to sleep - and the pain was alomst gone (it never wakes me), and this was my days, then. i did everthing reasonable to dull this horrible pain, without the meds, that i didnt know ,yet.
in the third year I developed (in time) painful sciatica in the... left side of course, it joined to the "pain party". maybe from the long walks that i did to dull the pain or the yoga alternative "prostatits" stretches, maybe from from my body that aged (i'm thin, 175m 58kg)
couple my lower BACK started to ache, and the pain was attacking both of the legs in "jolts" and those wasn't in this pain party before... maybe from the ciripractors, or other alterntive method, maybe from somthing I did wrong, or just... from age and body change and so...
so then i could'nt do my walks 'cause the pain through the left leg and the hip/thigh made me limp sometime, and I did'nt want to hurt to myself in more yoga.
in early 2012 went to the another doctors, from doctor to doctor, Rheumatologsist, Orthopedic Surgeons, Neurologist, CT to MRI and another MRI and EMG - to approach to the confusable life ruining problem the doctors couldnt find somthing "wrong" - except minor buldge disk in l5-s1 (left and back) htat they said its irrelvent. and no knee/leg reflexs and mild polin
well, they did gave me a lot of pain and nerve meds because I was in so agonising pain after three yeras of gradual suffring my PAIN THRESHOLD... I could'nt concatratre or even watch tv becuase of the pain that drived me nuts and the withdrawls from the narcotics was... well you know.
so i couldnt "live" with the medication side efects for the long term, and not without them because of the pain.
in 2014 i have read in some of the posts in this site, about torn labrums and so.
went to a doctor spciealized in this conditions, the doctor sent me to MRI to both of the side one by one - and the MRI's showed tears and other things int both of the labrums.
did my left scope surgery in 8/14 - it didnt help to the pain and gave more pain around the left thigh but i can walk without limping.
to the bottom line.
couple month before i had home accident, I used the light streatches from "headache in the pelvis" like i use to, my orologist recomended this book so i bought it couple years age end did the protocol, from time to time. not every day.
i was on amitriptyline or quit valium then, and the pain... so i did the inernal massage and pressed to hard and too high at 6 o'clock (left side with gloved thumb) (i couldnt "feel" becouse of the meds) as stupid didn'nt stop, stretched the levatyor ani way up . i'v hit a nerve or tore some of the levator ani or hit the pudendal nerve, i dont know but now things have totaly changed from this day...
i have numbnees about month and a half that spredded through my testicals, thighs, low back, perineum, lower abdominal all the saddle area is semy numb with woierd annopynig fealing and painful pinching pain about 5-6 cm up obve the left anus like my finger still there, cant feal the stomch riugth, digestion, stools, gas - almost cnat notice its all dull and semy - numb inside and in the skin outside. siiting - even with meds IS intolerable - the numbness can be so hard and cold like my bones wrapped with a plastic bag i can fell it in the upper stomach to through the knee, only if i sit - ... i'm so disapointed and angry on myself that i'v worsend my painful condition...trying only to heal myself when the doctors couldnt help me, just gave more meds. didn't lost all the erection from this "home self injury" but all of "it" doesn't feal like before, semy numb in the shaft, the skin is plastic like.
to my question:
1. As i wrote, I had pressed high and too hard in the 6 o'clock internal anal position (left side) about one minute strached or teared little portion of the levator ani or hit or just killed and overstetched a nerve above it, have did to myself permanat damage?
2. it's been too months, no improvment, coming and going and stiil always there - the numbness, worse when sitting, there was some tinglings - mostly in the late night, now it just this pinching pain above the anus and numbness (and pain) semy fealing of the saddle area and lower andominals up the belly button, way worse with sitting as i wrote. can this (loss of sensation and also numb skin pain when it is rubbed with a cloth) be improved in time? at least could i have my painful sharp old pain back? (with the senstation).
3. can surgery repair the damage i probably did? if so is there a doctor that can "give" me my sensation back and get rid of
the numbness/ pain / wierd sensation - through surgery or so?
(sorry about my misspelling..)
(it's going to be long, sorry - but you can jump to my question below)
I'll start from the begining in 2010, i'm 5 years sufferrer, male, 38 years old, same story like the most of you - and it just got worse and worse that gradually ruined my personal life, sex, even friends and girl friends ect...
my "prostatits" / pudendal neuralgia started as annoying weird in the left side of the penis shaft when rubbed with the underwear, (i didnt notice at first) and in time developed to constant burning or stabbing pain in the buttocks, testicals, prostate, perineum,penis, genitals, peeing pain, pelvis pain even through the knees, ect. most in the LEFT side, some in the right. the pain was "jumping" from one "place" to another all the day - it was "choosing" where to attack my body, it changed sometimes whan i changed positions. worsend by sitting, lieing down didnt help, some of it dull by walking or sport, and way way worse after sex - hours of extra pain.
in the first 2 years I did'nt KNOW what is pain or nerve meds are - only some antibiotics and tylnol - that's it.
some of the nice orologists that treated me then, told me to take antibiotics to long term - that didn't help, like the 2 prostsate heat therapy (painful like hell) that did'nt help to the pain but helped some in the urine stream... said to me that i will have to live with the horrible pain - just as is. i'v dealt with the "prostatis" pain by mostly myself as i told - healthy "prostatis diet" sport and yoga streaches all the day long - becusae i couldnt stay sit from the pain and without my microwave heating pad, cooldn't lie down or just sleep in the day because of the annoying pelvis pain, i was totaly ALONE in this sh#t, the doctors didn't know what to do with me, some of them just didnt care - so i was finding myself "working out" in long walks, sport, work, even books in the late night, in the morning when the pain stared and worsend - until the late night - when my boddy was so tired and the muscles too, just then - the pain subside, and then i went to sleep - and the pain was alomst gone (it never wakes me), and this was my days, then. i did everthing reasonable to dull this horrible pain, without the meds, that i didnt know ,yet.
in the third year I developed (in time) painful sciatica in the... left side of course, it joined to the "pain party". maybe from the long walks that i did to dull the pain or the yoga alternative "prostatits" stretches, maybe from from my body that aged (i'm thin, 175m 58kg)
couple my lower BACK started to ache, and the pain was attacking both of the legs in "jolts" and those wasn't in this pain party before... maybe from the ciripractors, or other alterntive method, maybe from somthing I did wrong, or just... from age and body change and so...
so then i could'nt do my walks 'cause the pain through the left leg and the hip/thigh made me limp sometime, and I did'nt want to hurt to myself in more yoga.
in early 2012 went to the another doctors, from doctor to doctor, Rheumatologsist, Orthopedic Surgeons, Neurologist, CT to MRI and another MRI and EMG - to approach to the confusable life ruining problem the doctors couldnt find somthing "wrong" - except minor buldge disk in l5-s1 (left and back) htat they said its irrelvent. and no knee/leg reflexs and mild polin
well, they did gave me a lot of pain and nerve meds because I was in so agonising pain after three yeras of gradual suffring my PAIN THRESHOLD... I could'nt concatratre or even watch tv becuase of the pain that drived me nuts and the withdrawls from the narcotics was... well you know.
so i couldnt "live" with the medication side efects for the long term, and not without them because of the pain.
in 2014 i have read in some of the posts in this site, about torn labrums and so.
went to a doctor spciealized in this conditions, the doctor sent me to MRI to both of the side one by one - and the MRI's showed tears and other things int both of the labrums.
did my left scope surgery in 8/14 - it didnt help to the pain and gave more pain around the left thigh but i can walk without limping.
to the bottom line.
couple month before i had home accident, I used the light streatches from "headache in the pelvis" like i use to, my orologist recomended this book so i bought it couple years age end did the protocol, from time to time. not every day.
i was on amitriptyline or quit valium then, and the pain... so i did the inernal massage and pressed to hard and too high at 6 o'clock (left side with gloved thumb) (i couldnt "feel" becouse of the meds) as stupid didn'nt stop, stretched the levatyor ani way up . i'v hit a nerve or tore some of the levator ani or hit the pudendal nerve, i dont know but now things have totaly changed from this day...
i have numbnees about month and a half that spredded through my testicals, thighs, low back, perineum, lower abdominal all the saddle area is semy numb with woierd annopynig fealing and painful pinching pain about 5-6 cm up obve the left anus like my finger still there, cant feal the stomch riugth, digestion, stools, gas - almost cnat notice its all dull and semy - numb inside and in the skin outside. siiting - even with meds IS intolerable - the numbness can be so hard and cold like my bones wrapped with a plastic bag i can fell it in the upper stomach to through the knee, only if i sit - ... i'm so disapointed and angry on myself that i'v worsend my painful condition...trying only to heal myself when the doctors couldnt help me, just gave more meds. didn't lost all the erection from this "home self injury" but all of "it" doesn't feal like before, semy numb in the shaft, the skin is plastic like.
to my question:
1. As i wrote, I had pressed high and too hard in the 6 o'clock internal anal position (left side) about one minute strached or teared little portion of the levator ani or hit or just killed and overstetched a nerve above it, have did to myself permanat damage?
2. it's been too months, no improvment, coming and going and stiil always there - the numbness, worse when sitting, there was some tinglings - mostly in the late night, now it just this pinching pain above the anus and numbness (and pain) semy fealing of the saddle area and lower andominals up the belly button, way worse with sitting as i wrote. can this (loss of sensation and also numb skin pain when it is rubbed with a cloth) be improved in time? at least could i have my painful sharp old pain back? (with the senstation).
3. can surgery repair the damage i probably did? if so is there a doctor that can "give" me my sensation back and get rid of
the numbness/ pain / wierd sensation - through surgery or so?
(sorry about my misspelling..)