Newcomer shares her story and seeks advice.
Posted: Thu Nov 25, 2010 7:02 am
Hi,
I'm new to this forum. I've been reading it on and off for the past few weeks, but I wasn't ready to accept that I might have PN. This has been very challenging for me, as I'm sure it's been for everyone on here. However, I'm trying to reach out rather than endure the isolation that I've been feeling due to my condition.
I'm not sure of the appropriate course of action here, meaning that I don't want to be obnoxious or not follow the rules of the forum. I've noticed that when people introduce themselves the other members usually ask for their story and so I thought I'd give you my condensed story and a few questions.
Last December I got a really sharp horrendous pain on my left abdominal side. I was given two rounds of strong antibiotics "just in case" but it turned out to be an ovarian cyst. In January, right after my cyst pain went away (I went on birth control), the burning began. It's the whole burning vagina, piercing pain, etc. I told my friends that my vagina was very angry with me. We nicknamed it. I figured I'd find the cause and heal soon. After several months of lidocaine cream, steriods, antiobiotics, and ice packs, I was desperately searching for help online. In April, I had my first herpes outbreak. My boyfriend (of 5 years) has it and I'd known, taking the risk because he was on daily Valtrex and because love does funny things to your brain. This is important because it might be the cause of my PN. However, at the time I thought I'd had a prolonged outbreak and almost felt relieved when I got a diagnosis (it's amazing what you'll welcome when you're in debilitating and mysterious pain). But the outbreak subsided and the pain persisted. I found a website that discussed vulvodynia and vaginismus. I had been through a slew of compassionate but confused doctors and I took my new possible diagnoses to three doctors. Finally, in July an obgyn recognized that I have vaginismus, sent me to a PT and put me on Neurotin.
I love my PT. She is wonderful. Since August we've been working through the pain, trying to figure out a cause for all this pain. I have vulvodynia, vestibulitis, and vaginismus. She is also thinking that perhaps my pain is really stemming from post-herpetic pudendal neuralgia. She is doing myofascial release on my legs and inside my vagina (I have these trigger points alll over my legs and butt-- who knew?!), nerve gliding, stretching, and a few other techniques that I can not remember. I use the foam roller, stretch, use a seated cushion, walk for exercise (I hate to swim) and go to Kundalini yoga to work on relaxing my tight pelvic muscles and strengthening my nervous system. My SI joint is apparently "unstable" and my obturator is incredibly tense and possibly contributing. I'm currently on 600mg of Neurontin, daily Valtrex, lots of vitamins and I used to use Estrace but I couldn't really tell a difference so my gyno. told me to get off. She's a minimalist and so am I. Oh, and I go to acupuncture as well. My PT is thinking of PN because the burning, throbbing, piercing and/or "crankiness" starts when I'm sitting. For a few months I simply could not sit down. Also, I get weird throbbing and aching sensations at the base of the nerve...I don't know if this is a correct description...on the very lower part of my labia.
I'm sorry this is so long! I have a few questions, if anyone knows the answer.
-What do you think of Neurontin? I can't tell if it's helping. All I know is that it makes me incredibly spacey and I've been gaining lots of weight.
-Have you heard of pudendal neuralgia caused by genital herpes? (I have type II)
-I've read online that PN is difficult to diagnose. I've read that getting a nerve block is the ultimate way to determine if it's PN that's really causing your pain, but then I've read horror stories about nerve blocks. I just worry that my body won't respond well to the nerve blocks. I guess I'm just scared.
If you are still reading I appreciate your patience! I've become pretty saddened and depressed by this condition. I really want to read stories of hope because lately I feel like I don't have much to fight for. Meaning, I'm afraid I will always be in pain, never be able to sexually active, and I'm worried about my emotional health. This condition is very isolating.
Thanks from the newcomer!
Ayo
I'm new to this forum. I've been reading it on and off for the past few weeks, but I wasn't ready to accept that I might have PN. This has been very challenging for me, as I'm sure it's been for everyone on here. However, I'm trying to reach out rather than endure the isolation that I've been feeling due to my condition.
I'm not sure of the appropriate course of action here, meaning that I don't want to be obnoxious or not follow the rules of the forum. I've noticed that when people introduce themselves the other members usually ask for their story and so I thought I'd give you my condensed story and a few questions.
Last December I got a really sharp horrendous pain on my left abdominal side. I was given two rounds of strong antibiotics "just in case" but it turned out to be an ovarian cyst. In January, right after my cyst pain went away (I went on birth control), the burning began. It's the whole burning vagina, piercing pain, etc. I told my friends that my vagina was very angry with me. We nicknamed it. I figured I'd find the cause and heal soon. After several months of lidocaine cream, steriods, antiobiotics, and ice packs, I was desperately searching for help online. In April, I had my first herpes outbreak. My boyfriend (of 5 years) has it and I'd known, taking the risk because he was on daily Valtrex and because love does funny things to your brain. This is important because it might be the cause of my PN. However, at the time I thought I'd had a prolonged outbreak and almost felt relieved when I got a diagnosis (it's amazing what you'll welcome when you're in debilitating and mysterious pain). But the outbreak subsided and the pain persisted. I found a website that discussed vulvodynia and vaginismus. I had been through a slew of compassionate but confused doctors and I took my new possible diagnoses to three doctors. Finally, in July an obgyn recognized that I have vaginismus, sent me to a PT and put me on Neurotin.
I love my PT. She is wonderful. Since August we've been working through the pain, trying to figure out a cause for all this pain. I have vulvodynia, vestibulitis, and vaginismus. She is also thinking that perhaps my pain is really stemming from post-herpetic pudendal neuralgia. She is doing myofascial release on my legs and inside my vagina (I have these trigger points alll over my legs and butt-- who knew?!), nerve gliding, stretching, and a few other techniques that I can not remember. I use the foam roller, stretch, use a seated cushion, walk for exercise (I hate to swim) and go to Kundalini yoga to work on relaxing my tight pelvic muscles and strengthening my nervous system. My SI joint is apparently "unstable" and my obturator is incredibly tense and possibly contributing. I'm currently on 600mg of Neurontin, daily Valtrex, lots of vitamins and I used to use Estrace but I couldn't really tell a difference so my gyno. told me to get off. She's a minimalist and so am I. Oh, and I go to acupuncture as well. My PT is thinking of PN because the burning, throbbing, piercing and/or "crankiness" starts when I'm sitting. For a few months I simply could not sit down. Also, I get weird throbbing and aching sensations at the base of the nerve...I don't know if this is a correct description...on the very lower part of my labia.
I'm sorry this is so long! I have a few questions, if anyone knows the answer.
-What do you think of Neurontin? I can't tell if it's helping. All I know is that it makes me incredibly spacey and I've been gaining lots of weight.
-Have you heard of pudendal neuralgia caused by genital herpes? (I have type II)
-I've read online that PN is difficult to diagnose. I've read that getting a nerve block is the ultimate way to determine if it's PN that's really causing your pain, but then I've read horror stories about nerve blocks. I just worry that my body won't respond well to the nerve blocks. I guess I'm just scared.
If you are still reading I appreciate your patience! I've become pretty saddened and depressed by this condition. I really want to read stories of hope because lately I feel like I don't have much to fight for. Meaning, I'm afraid I will always be in pain, never be able to sexually active, and I'm worried about my emotional health. This condition is very isolating.
Thanks from the newcomer!
Ayo