So Afraid!
Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 6:53 pm
Hi fellow aussies.
I have just spent 4 hours on this site looking for answers. And although I have found some things that may help, overall I fell an overwhelming sense of doom. I am taking 20mg endep n now taking tramadol for arousel. This is why I'm wide awake at 430am! The trend I see on this site is that although some people had found medications n surgery, a few months later they were back on the site saying how symptoms were worse n they had to increase there meds. N the unlucky ones that couldn't take any more meds were left with just getting through days with pain. So my massive fear is that I'm 29 and in a few years Il b like everyone else here......worse off! Surgery is now last option and even then it seems that it works for a small group, and symptoms can even return. Geez this is the most terrified I've ever been. I think about suicide now as I don't have the strength to live a life full of this.
I don't even know what caused this. If I guessed it would be a bad dose of constipation for 3 months due to ceoliac disease. I had bad stabbing/stingy pain in vagina,pulsing clitoris,raw feeling in vagina,tingle felling in vagina and feet. Muscle spasms in left side of vagina.frequently peeing also. Endep has helped with pain but what I'm left with is mild itchy feeling on and off in vagina, tingling in feet and vagina, and the worst is spontaneous pulses of clitoris that brings on unwanted arousel. Tramadol has helped twice with that but side effects are sweating,insomnia ringing in ears. Who's to say all of these won't get worse n then the journey of upping the drugs till they no longer work begins.
I'm finding it all too much to deal with and just feel like I'm mourning the loss of my life. And so I go on and continue with doctors appointments and start physio with the hope I can stop this in its tracks
Thanks for listening, Il try and get some sleep now
Kate
I have just spent 4 hours on this site looking for answers. And although I have found some things that may help, overall I fell an overwhelming sense of doom. I am taking 20mg endep n now taking tramadol for arousel. This is why I'm wide awake at 430am! The trend I see on this site is that although some people had found medications n surgery, a few months later they were back on the site saying how symptoms were worse n they had to increase there meds. N the unlucky ones that couldn't take any more meds were left with just getting through days with pain. So my massive fear is that I'm 29 and in a few years Il b like everyone else here......worse off! Surgery is now last option and even then it seems that it works for a small group, and symptoms can even return. Geez this is the most terrified I've ever been. I think about suicide now as I don't have the strength to live a life full of this.
I don't even know what caused this. If I guessed it would be a bad dose of constipation for 3 months due to ceoliac disease. I had bad stabbing/stingy pain in vagina,pulsing clitoris,raw feeling in vagina,tingle felling in vagina and feet. Muscle spasms in left side of vagina.frequently peeing also. Endep has helped with pain but what I'm left with is mild itchy feeling on and off in vagina, tingling in feet and vagina, and the worst is spontaneous pulses of clitoris that brings on unwanted arousel. Tramadol has helped twice with that but side effects are sweating,insomnia ringing in ears. Who's to say all of these won't get worse n then the journey of upping the drugs till they no longer work begins.
I'm finding it all too much to deal with and just feel like I'm mourning the loss of my life. And so I go on and continue with doctors appointments and start physio with the hope I can stop this in its tracks
Thanks for listening, Il try and get some sleep now
Kate